I used to feel the same way a few years ago when I started using drugs, then as the years of addiction have come and gone my feelings about the whole thing changed. Drugs used to be fun and meant that I was about to have a hell of a good time, now it almost feels like a chore when it's time to use, all the fun that I used to get from it is gone. I personally can't wait to rewrire my brain to be able to feel good without having to put a needle in my arm. I just hope that one day you realise that drugs aren't the answer to your happiness and that you're slowly destroying who you are the more you use. For the time being I wish you the best and encourage you to live your life the way you feel it should be lived (:
That’s what I figured, it doesn’t seem like a ride that lasts forever. It’s just so hard to draw the line because you’re totally right about how each use chips away at your personality but at the same time I’m still getting my fun out of it. I can enjoy myself without drugs but it’s kinda like watching a movie with the sound off lol now that I know what’s out there. I suppose there are things like having a family that fulfil you in different ways
I totally get you. It's like you feel you're missing out on something if you don't use, but you know that each high is getting you closer to not being able to feel some kind of euphoria without them. It's truly a vicious cycle! I of course can't tell you what to do but I can give you some advice, and my advice is to reduce your drug use as much as possible. If you continue on the path of drug abuse you won't be the one who's driving the car anymore, the drugs will. I myself can barely recognize the person who looks back at me in the mirror and I've only been using drugs to ultimately become an addict for 4-5 years. That's a crazy short time and it will go by way faster than you think the more you use. I don't want you to follow the path that I followed and get to a point where the person you used to be and wanted to become got replaced by regrets. I believe you deserve better than that and truly wish you the best with your decision making in the future. Feel free to chat if you feel like it.
I'm sorry to say but I think it's come to a point where you need to part ways. This person clearly isn't in a place where "getting better" is on his to do list, and sadly when an addict doesn't want to stop, you can't make him stop. I believe you need to take care of yourself at the moment and realise that this relationship isn't bringing you the joy and complicity that you usually feel when you're with a true friend. Manipulating, lying and disregarding the feelings of the other person to get what you want is simply selfish and disrespectful and isn't something that should be a part of your life, you're worth more than this. I believe in you, I'm sure you'll be relieved once it's over with (:
The fucked up thing is that whenever I felt unsure about where our friendship was going, he begged me to reconsider, that he was a good guy and that I could trust him entirely. I guess all that was just a cover up for being a waste of a human...
As we speak I'm on methadone paired with whats called a safe supply, a small dose of dilaudid prescribed every day so I don't use street drugs like fentanyl or heroin. I'm stable but I really want to get sober, be able to have children and live a drug frer lifestyle (:
[23F] My addiction started out of mental predispositions, deep body and mind discomfort, very low self esteem and the need to fit in. I just wanted to feel numb and stop hurting inside, so I let him stick the needle full of morphine in my arm and my life hasn't been the same since. The feeling was everything I'd ever dreamed of, I forgot the pain and my body felt like fuzzy cloud; right away I wanted to try it again, I was hooked. Never have I ever made a mistake with that big of a backlash on my life and I never could've imagined the power opioid addiction had on the body and mind. But I'm motivated to change; I'm working really hard to free myself from this addiction and finally be able to say "I'm sober!".
The labret tissue is actually very hard and painful to stretch compared to the earlobes for example. When you're going for a size similar to mine it's faster to scalp it since it's sometimes impossible to reach such a size from stretching alone.
The pain is bad when I was getting it done and for about 4 hours after, then it started to go down and it feels better everyday. I believe the plug is made out of teflon.
I'll try to answer as many questions as possible in one comment. You feel the needle coming out more than you feel it coming in and yes it's gonna pinch but once it's done you don't feel it when walking, sitting down or laying down it's so nice! It's doesn't affect your sensitivity down there since it's only on your pubic area and isn't piercing anything that relates to pleasure. I went and changed the top disc to a ball so it's not digging into my skin to accomodate the swelling, some people might need a longer bar but mine was fine (: Being on your period or peeing doesn't affect it since it's too high to get any fluids on it. Hope I answered your questions! Feel free to ask more (;
Bahaha! I love the little poop in the second picture, adds the perfect touch to the joke 😂
This is awesome men!
I used to feel the same way a few years ago when I started using drugs, then as the years of addiction have come and gone my feelings about the whole thing changed. Drugs used to be fun and meant that I was about to have a hell of a good time, now it almost feels like a chore when it's time to use, all the fun that I used to get from it is gone. I personally can't wait to rewrire my brain to be able to feel good without having to put a needle in my arm. I just hope that one day you realise that drugs aren't the answer to your happiness and that you're slowly destroying who you are the more you use. For the time being I wish you the best and encourage you to live your life the way you feel it should be lived (:
That’s what I figured, it doesn’t seem like a ride that lasts forever. It’s just so hard to draw the line because you’re totally right about how each use chips away at your personality but at the same time I’m still getting my fun out of it. I can enjoy myself without drugs but it’s kinda like watching a movie with the sound off lol now that I know what’s out there. I suppose there are things like having a family that fulfil you in different ways
I totally get you. It's like you feel you're missing out on something if you don't use, but you know that each high is getting you closer to not being able to feel some kind of euphoria without them. It's truly a vicious cycle! I of course can't tell you what to do but I can give you some advice, and my advice is to reduce your drug use as much as possible. If you continue on the path of drug abuse you won't be the one who's driving the car anymore, the drugs will. I myself can barely recognize the person who looks back at me in the mirror and I've only been using drugs to ultimately become an addict for 4-5 years. That's a crazy short time and it will go by way faster than you think the more you use. I don't want you to follow the path that I followed and get to a point where the person you used to be and wanted to become got replaced by regrets. I believe you deserve better than that and truly wish you the best with your decision making in the future. Feel free to chat if you feel like it.
I'm sorry to say but I think it's come to a point where you need to part ways. This person clearly isn't in a place where "getting better" is on his to do list, and sadly when an addict doesn't want to stop, you can't make him stop. I believe you need to take care of yourself at the moment and realise that this relationship isn't bringing you the joy and complicity that you usually feel when you're with a true friend. Manipulating, lying and disregarding the feelings of the other person to get what you want is simply selfish and disrespectful and isn't something that should be a part of your life, you're worth more than this. I believe in you, I'm sure you'll be relieved once it's over with (:
Your boyfriends needs to want to stop. If he doesn’t then there literally is nothing you can do you can’t force him. Change comes from oneself.
Amen. I'm sorry to say but if an addict doesn't want to change he won't. Some people need to hit rock bottom before realizing they need help..
I’m so sorry you trusted someone who revealed themselves to be a human shaped pile of garbage.
The fucked up thing is that whenever I felt unsure about where our friendship was going, he begged me to reconsider, that he was a good guy and that I could trust him entirely. I guess all that was just a cover up for being a waste of a human...
Good guys don’t tell you that they are. They show you.
Amen
When that guy injected me for the first time, from that very second I wanted to try it again. The habit never existed, the addiction came first.
That’s a serious jump. How are you dealing with it now?
As we speak I'm on methadone paired with whats called a safe supply, a small dose of dilaudid prescribed every day so I don't use street drugs like fentanyl or heroin. I'm stable but I really want to get sober, be able to have children and live a drug frer lifestyle (:
It's not like they even tried to be transphobic, they're just ignorant and stupid 😂
I was so sad for her to have died this way, then I saw her little legs go for a run, yay!
I believe there is such a thing as anorexia fetishism and I'm pretty sure she makes money off of that.. it's pretty sad if you ask me.
[23F] My addiction started out of mental predispositions, deep body and mind discomfort, very low self esteem and the need to fit in. I just wanted to feel numb and stop hurting inside, so I let him stick the needle full of morphine in my arm and my life hasn't been the same since. The feeling was everything I'd ever dreamed of, I forgot the pain and my body felt like fuzzy cloud; right away I wanted to try it again, I was hooked. Never have I ever made a mistake with that big of a backlash on my life and I never could've imagined the power opioid addiction had on the body and mind. But I'm motivated to change; I'm working really hard to free myself from this addiction and finally be able to say "I'm sober!".
Looks amazing 🤩 Any thoughts on a goal size? Are you planning on ovaling out?
Thank you so much! That's as big as I'm gonna go, and as soon as it's healed I'm putting in an oval plug, it'll look so much prettier 😊
So scalping means they just cut it open wider?
They cut in then stretch it to the final size.
Can I ask why you didn’t stretch it slowly? Is that a thing with lip piercings?
The labret tissue is actually very hard and painful to stretch compared to the earlobes for example. When you're going for a size similar to mine it's faster to scalp it since it's sometimes impossible to reach such a size from stretching alone.
Did it hurted?
Fuck yeah it did, it was cut then stretched without anesthetic.
Very cool and interesting! How’s the pain? What the material of the plug?
The pain is bad when I was getting it done and for about 4 hours after, then it started to go down and it feels better everyday. I believe the plug is made out of teflon.
She looks like a drag queen with that makeup 😂
I think the eyes look pretty good, but the orange contour is atrocious..
I'll try to answer as many questions as possible in one comment. You feel the needle coming out more than you feel it coming in and yes it's gonna pinch but once it's done you don't feel it when walking, sitting down or laying down it's so nice! It's doesn't affect your sensitivity down there since it's only on your pubic area and isn't piercing anything that relates to pleasure. I went and changed the top disc to a ball so it's not digging into my skin to accomodate the swelling, some people might need a longer bar but mine was fine (: Being on your period or peeing doesn't affect it since it's too high to get any fluids on it. Hope I answered your questions! Feel free to ask more (;